In February 2020, Mike decided to be baptized himself. “After fighting my shame, demons, secrets and lies for four years, I was ready to dedicate my life to Chris again,” wrote Mike in The Good Fight. “To admit that I need him in my life, that I love him and that I finally know for the first time in over ten years that he loves me without exception and that I deserve his love.” Today, the couple continues to use faith as a tool to stay connected and keep the marriage strong.
Mike: After Jana and I went through everything and really committed ourselves again to God and a higher power, the baptism was only for me. I didn’t want any news. I didn’t want to have any attention to it. I need this for me. I must take these steps to be accountable and accountable to my church, community, myself, and my family. Hey, that’s me, just stepping into God in a way that I haven’t done in over a decade.
Jana: We like to go to our church together. Going to church establishes us and centers us. One day we were kind of upset and while we were sitting in church holding hands we realized that it was so much bigger than us and we were able to reconnect. We are still comfortable praying aloud. When you take it into the bedroom and pray for someone to hold us up and walk these steps, it creates a strong bond between the two of us.
Mike: In the last few years I have really found trust again and now I have it as an important part of my life. The baptism a year ago was really my symbol of accepting a higher power again and that I am not alone.