Finally, she turned back to her hair and makeup and spoke to her manager about her discomfort. “I cried in my trailer. I thought, ‘I don’t want to do this. It feels dirty. It feels like you are trying to mix it up,'” said the mother of two.

Sophia said she agreed that it felt like the writers “turned up a 10 out of nowhere”.

“I felt like a prostitute. It was the first moment I thought, ‘I’m kissing someone for money. I get paid to do something like performative.” [thing]'”Hilarie explained.” There’s one thing about morality where you say,’ Am I, in a way, a sex worker? ‘ Is that OnlyFans in 2003? ‘”

Hilarie found the courage to go back on set after her hairdressers and makeup artists had a shot of grapefruit vodka with her, and she remembered on the podcast how that moment made her realize she wasn’t alone. “All the women in the trailer got together and said, ‘You may feel like you’re all alone, but we’re here. We’re right behind the monitor, ‘”said Hilarie.” It was such a sisterhood moment that really cemented my friendships behind the camera because I knew we’d keep doing things that felt weird. “